It's beshert that today's Elul prompt is "prepare" because my intention today was to prepare the service outlines for Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur.
I'm big into preparation, sort of.
I start planning for events - divrei Torah, essays for local newspapers, parties, services, lesson plans, concerts - weeks and months in advance. I brainstorm and research, come up with lots of ideas, and make long notes and lists.
Then I promptly stop as soon as something more interesting or immediate comes my way. I figure that I have "plenty of time" before said event, so I can get back to finalizing my prepping soon enough.
The reality, though, is that because I am very expert at last-minute pulling together, all those deeply researched lists fall apart, and I usually do wind up doing that last-minute thing.
And that's a problem. Financially, I wind up spending more money than I should have needed to ordering things with overnight delivery. I spend hours on the computer finishing a devar Torah on Friday morning or an essay due an hour later. I go into panic mode.
The last-minute rush isn't healthy for the people around me, either. I am unpleasant to be with when I'm in panic mode, and honestly, no one likes last-minute changes or surprises.
So one of my kavvanot this month will be this: I do prep work on a timely basis.
I'm big into preparation, sort of.
I start planning for events - divrei Torah, essays for local newspapers, parties, services, lesson plans, concerts - weeks and months in advance. I brainstorm and research, come up with lots of ideas, and make long notes and lists.
Then I promptly stop as soon as something more interesting or immediate comes my way. I figure that I have "plenty of time" before said event, so I can get back to finalizing my prepping soon enough.
The reality, though, is that because I am very expert at last-minute pulling together, all those deeply researched lists fall apart, and I usually do wind up doing that last-minute thing.
And that's a problem. Financially, I wind up spending more money than I should have needed to ordering things with overnight delivery. I spend hours on the computer finishing a devar Torah on Friday morning or an essay due an hour later. I go into panic mode.
The last-minute rush isn't healthy for the people around me, either. I am unpleasant to be with when I'm in panic mode, and honestly, no one likes last-minute changes or surprises.
So one of my kavvanot this month will be this: I do prep work on a timely basis.
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