Marilyn |
Like a lot of Jews, I'm embarking on a yearly pre-High Holy Day search for me.
I spent a lot of years searching for myself. I looked for me in academia, in spirituality, in meditation, in therapy, in food and diets and exercise, in a bunch of different places. I looked in Judaism, dabbling with Orthodoxy in college and finding a bit of me in Reform Judaism (which is a good thing considering that I identify as a Reform Cantor). I looked for myself in other people, always hoping that someone else would tell me who and what I was.
And this year, my search for myself continues. Every time I pick up the search, I ask God to help me be fearless and thorough. I ask for compassion for myself so that I don't jump feet first into self-pity. I ask for perspective so I don't focus only on the negative aspects of my being.
Maybe this will be the year I finally figure out what I'm looking for.
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